Wednesday, November 16, 2005

Wow!! Christmas is coming!!

As I opened my inbox this afternoon, a shocking realization dawned on me. Thankgsiving is NEXT WEEK!!! Before you know it, we'll be dragging decorations out of the closet, and piling all sorts of paraphernalia on our poor leftover turkeys. (No, I don't mean husbands when I say that, either! Hahahaha!) Wow. Time flies...

Thus brings me to the reason for this speedy update: a wonderful Christmas concert that just might be heading to your neck of the woods. Steven Curtis Chapman and MercyMe will be teaming up (for the very first time!) to bring the joy of Christmas "to a heart near you." Reflecting on the true Meaning of CHRISTmas, the guys combine to minister us in word and song and "Rock around the Christmas tree" with all those who are brave enough to venture out into the "winter wonderland."

For more information, check out http://www.stevencurtischapman.com/ and be sure to click on "tour." There's also a pretty cool e-card to be found (and sent to your friends and family) at: http://www.buzzplant.com/thechristmastour/ecard1/

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Bloggerific...

Nope. Not feeling it today, but I figured I'd post an update fearing that Slicer is on the prowl.....

So, for those of you who don't know me but post spam-filled comments on my blog, I had a birthday this past weekend. I am now a proud member of the "thirty-somethings." Joy. No longer am I the big 3-0. I'm now 9 years away from the big 4-0, though. :p Nine years is a long time and it's also frighteningly short, especially if you're somewhat of a ragamuffin like me.

On the job front, there have been no dynamic flashes of light nor booming commands from God as to what to do. Why must He always use that still small voice with me? Maybe I should borrow one of my students' hearing aids :p. :-)

Seriously, though....I feel like I'm exploding inside....or caught in some sort of cyclone. I have so many directions I "could" go in, but have no idea which way is up. I definitely don't want to do the wrong thing......... I am so afraid of making the wrong move that I'm paralyzed in one sense, and chomping at the bit in another. I'm getting frantic and frozen with fright all in the same instance. How is that possible? I can't wade thru all the mire that's in my head. I feel like I'm near the breaking point.

Any counselors out there? Have fun :-)

Have a great week, guys.

(All is not gloomy and glum in my world, contrary to this entry.)

Monday, November 07, 2005

Monday, Monday..

Well, how's everyone's week starting off? I hope to a roarin good start!

How's the weather been? I'm in some sort of weird biosphere or something. Is it springtime or fall???? I mean, the thermometer has been charting our temps in the mid to high 80's lately, so I just wanted to check. Whassup with that? However, I will say it's made for some nice days. It's just weird to be in November and still able to wear shorts and sandals. I'm not complaining, though. I prefer these temps to those that chill ya right to the bone. I mean, a nice night where it's cool enough to sip hot cocoa and sit before a crackling fire would be good...but I don't want blizzardy weather or anything.

We're doing well. The ripple effects of Kyle's life just keep rollin on out there. It's been good to read about other's memories of him (and hear some of Dillon's). I hate that I missed out on knowing him. And to think, we've passed thru Waco at least 4 times now. I wish we would have looked him up at least one of those times. Carpe diem, guys.

Not much else going on. We tried to take in a restful weekend w/ no travels to the inlaws. It pretty much worked. I should have taken the opportunity to straighten up the house, though. I know it's going to be a harder task to tackle during the week (I'm so tired when I get home).

Speaking of being tired....I think I'm crashing and burning guys. Things are getting to me more and more. I'm really starting to consider leaving this job...if not by the end of Christmas break...then at least by the end of the school year. Part of me wonders if I'm just in the "It's getting too hard...I can't....so I give up" mentality. I'm good at beating myself up and over-analyzing things. I do feel the need to spread my wings a little and this job really doesn't do it for me. The thing is, I still feel stuck. Where to go next?

I've posted a resume on Monster.com. It's for a Physical Therapy Aide. I feel that if I ever want to pursue that route, I gotta start "over" and work myself into it. The reason being is, though I've had a lot of the classes that are required to obtain an Assistant's License, I don't have everything I need. I sort of want to go that route before I take the plunge and apply for a Master's in PT. I'm not even exactly sure I want to do this, but it's an option b/c of my educational background (Bachelor's of Science in Exercise Science/Wellness, etc).

I took one of those career questionnaires. It said I'm more apt to be a writer/journalist! That's just it. There are too many choices...to many things I might like to do, but don't know how to go about doing it (and get paid). I feel like my life is slipping away and time's running out.

AAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHH!! Lifeline, anyone???

I've been in a perpetual state of confusion since my latter years of high school. I guess you can see how I've come about feeling as if I've been sucked into a vacuum.

Thanks for reading. Comments appreciated. Prayer even moreso appreciated. :-)